Tom Volhein

Well, it’s been a while since I have posted anything. Mostly I have been in the studio on my own. You can here what I have finished on my Songs page, give a listen. As far as writing a post, that is more of a challenge.

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I am having a good morning.  Lately, for the past few weeks, I have been spending mornings and afternoons at a local cafe, Wildflower.  That is where I am right now.  For the most part it is to kill time away from the house.  What I haven’t confessed on this blog is that, since April of this year, I have been suffering from a deep depression and anxiety.   And that condition is exacerbated when I am at home.  That is improving though.

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Just a note to say that I am still here.  The last five months have been hard, with the loss of my dog (died), my bird (died), my guitars and bass (stolen).  I am also wrestling with some personal issues that I won’t go into here.  Perhaps as things settle down, I will have something to post that will make sense.

peace,

t

It’s been a while.  I have had some challenging times.  And sometimes I feel that there is nothing to say, or that what I have to say is frivolous.  To some I suppose it is.

I am working on and in the studio a lot these days.  I have formed a trio and we are rehearsing.  I am laying down some tracks in preparation for bringing the trio into the studio to do some cover tunes.  Also, we have a gig at 7:45pm on June 24th at:
The Beaded Lizard Gathering
Devonshire Community Center
2802 E Devonshire Ave
Phoenix, AZ 85016
(602) 256-3130

We are gearing up for a performance at the Flagstaff Folk Festival, June 27 and 28.  I don’t know yet what day and what time.  I will put it into the calendar as soon as I know.

I have been building acoustic panels.  I finished Studio A, and am starting on the Control Room.  I should be done with everything by the end of June.

I am also working on a client’s cd.  I am playing bass on it and engineering it.  I think that it will turn out very nice.  We are about to wrap up the lead vocal, guitar and bass.  Then we will add some solo instruments.

I am in a worrying state this morning.  I have a bunch of negative “what ifs” rolling around in my head.  They are about my dog Oscar.  Yesterday he had an operation to take a cyst off of his eyelid.  I worried all day, then picked him up last night.  Of course he was groggy and not himself, under the influence.  He was really groggy at home too.  I hate to see him like this.  This morning he is still groggy.  I am scared.

Last week my grandson shared with me something that his employer, an old cowboy, told him.  He said that indeed bad things happen.  What I have control of is my worry.  So I can feel bad from now until something bad happens, or I can wait until the bad thing happens to feel bad – and not waste time worrying about something that might happen, a what if.

The gist of it is that I can chose to not worry.  That is hard for me to believe.  I trust my worrying and use it to motivate myself.  For me, what ifs are just the fuel for my random worry and shame.  Worry and shame keep me moving.  But they take such a toll.  And I am tired of them, tired physically and emotionally.

This morning the what ifs are about Oscar?  Is he sick?  Is he dying?  Will he get well?  What if he dies?   How will I feel?  What will I do without him?  Of course some day Oscar will die, I will be crushed.  But now is probably not the time, and my worrying about his death doesn’t serve either one of us.  But damn, it is hard to not worry, harder still to believe that I have the capability to not worry.

So, today I will test this out.  I will do the best I can to not play what if with Oscar’s recovery.  As he gets better, which I am certain in my heart he will, I will challenge my worries, see if I can make some headway.

To sum, there are lots of good things going on, and I want to think about those things, not things that could go wrong.  I wish myself luck.

peace,

t

PS:  The Oscar, worry story is a copy of a comment that I posted on my daughter’s web site, and can be found HERE.

Getting Happy

My daughter is on a trip during which she is interviewing “people on the street” about what makes them happy.  She also has a blog where people can post or email her, talking about what makes them happy.  The comment I sent in is at the bottom of this post.  The site for anyone to submit a response is:  http://www.findinghappinesseverywhere.com

Her intention is to create happy and positive energy during this time of economic hardship, to remind us all that there is so much to be happy about.

At first I was suspicious of her theory.  I wasn’t in the mood.  But this morning, as I was writing what makes me happy, writing what makes me happy, made me happy.

So there is energy out there to be had.  I found it.

There is a back story here though.  For the last six or eight months, I have been really down.  It has been tough for me to feel good.  I don’t know exactly what has been the cause – maybe the economy, maybe my age – I am not sure.  But I seem to have reached the bottom and am on my way up.

I spent time in the studio yesterday, laying down some bass tracks for a client’s song.  Today I will do the same.  I am also putting together a trio to perform at the Flagstaff Folk Festival.  And, of course, I spend the in between time playing guitar and singing.  I spend all of my time doing what I love.  That is the definition of happiness.  And now I am experiencing the joyful feelings that are a result of doing the things that I love to do.

I wish everyone happiness and joy.

peace,

t

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What makes me happy, what happiness is for me.

I am happy when I play my guitar.  I am really happy when I perform for others, playing my guitar and singing the songs that I love.

I am happy when I am in the studio, recording and engineering the music that I love – either alone or with other musicians.

I am happy when I write to family and friends and share what is going on with me.  I write in the mornings as I sit at my computer, having breakfast and enjoying the sounds from the back yard and listening to Pandora.

I am happy sharing my life with Linda, my wife.  In fact, my heart fills with joy just thinking about it – how in love I am and how I feel loved.

As I grow older, I realize that, for me, happiness is almost always about relationships.  The more relationships I have, the happier I stay.  The more I communicate with those I love, the happier I stay.

The greatest part of all of this is that I spend my whole day doing these things.  Therefore, most of all I am happy with my life.

Thanks for the opportunity to share what makes me happy.
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Friday Linda and I went to a house concert featuring Chuck Pyle.  Years ago, a close friend of mine in Wichita sent me a cd, True Unity. I liked it, but hadn’t listened to it for a while, so I didn’t know what to expect.

At the house concert, Chuck impressed me with his guitar playing, professionalism and sweet voice. I am not a concert reviewer, and don’t have the words to describe the sound, so I won’t attempt it. However, I do know a really good guitar player when I hear one, and Chuck is excellent.

I love the new tunes as well as the songs that I hadn’t heard in a while.  Chuck’s music is a blend of personal stories, cowboy, and regional tales.  The lyrics, combined with his sweet voice and stylized guitar made for a warm and intimate evening.

Chuck is open and happy to talk guitar, and I took the opportunity to ask a few questions. His finger-picking style is one that I want to attempt, so I signed up for a guitar workshop he was to conduct the following Sunday.

Saturday, at the Glendale Folk and Heritage Festival, Chuck was nice enough to come by the stage on which I performed and listen to a couple of my tunes.

By the way, I had a great time at the Glendale festival. I did the last set of the day, so I was thinking that it would be a loser time with a small audience. Sure enough the audience was small, but there was nothing loser about the experience. I had a wonderful time performing about seven tunes in the close-in and personal venue. My cousin and a friend of hers made a surprise visit, enjoyed the music, and took me to dinner after the festival. Very nice.

The workshop on Sunday was very good. There were only five participants, so we each got plenty of attention. I won’t bore you with details, just to say that Chuck presented many techniques and ideas – more than enough to keep me busy practicing for quite a while. I am hoping that I will stick with the material long enough to at least capture the basic loping rhythm so distinctive in Chucks playing, and add it to my own style.

All in all, a good and musical weekend. I was back in the studio Monday.

Livin the dream.

peace,

t

Well, it happened.  Yesterday I was talking with a friend and she mentioned that she got out of the market when the DOW hit 10K – went into a CD.  This was the moment I was dreading.  I already felt ashamed, and was just waiting for the moment when I could feel even worse about my decisions and myself regarding my retirement accounts.  I am still holding about 50% equities, and my accounts are sinking like stones.  I have stewed about her remark ever since, feeling afraid and ashamed for my decisions.  Like a fool, I watch the DOW and base my feelings on it’s ups and downs.  At these times, my only hope is that everyone is freaking out as much as I am, so that I don’t have to feel alone in this.
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Last week UPS brought some new gear for the studio – packages containing two Grace m101 mic preamps, an ART Pro VLA II tube compressor and a Shure SM7 (to match the SM7 already in the studio).  Over the weekend and on Monday, I installed and tested the gear on my own.  Then yesterday, a friend came into the studio and laid down some guitar and vocal tracks.

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Last night, a select group of us enjoyed a house concert given by Kerry Grombacher.  Touted as a modern-day troubadour, his songs reflect the depth of his knowledge about the geography and the history that are part of his many journeys.  His dedication to traveling, listening, learning and writing about his experiences impressed us all.

Kerry’s concert was an adventure, both musical and educational.  All of us enjoyed his songs, his stories and his company.

peace,

t

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I spend a lot of time worrying about being 61, what it means to me and what it means for my future – more to the point, the lack of future.  Too often, the more excited I get about the things that I am doing and the things that I want to do, the more scared I get over my age and getting old, frail, and finally dead.
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